Drugs May Aid Only Severe Depression, Analysis Says - NYTimes.com

Drugs May Aid Only Severe Depression, Analysis Says - NYTimes.com


HUH... How can this be useful if the details of the trial are not provided? How can this represent moderate depression accurately when the root cause is not identified? Was the moderate depressive 'moderate' due to self medication? Or the emotional symptoms perhaps still partially repressed if ptsd related? What if it is situational? What if the brain actually would repsond to a different drug? As far as I know there are groups of ssri's and may effect people's brains differently. What if any experience had the people who took placebo's and the actual drug in understanding the relationship between thouhgts and emotions? Behaviors learned or genetically pre-disposed may account for this moderate 'moderate' depression and the depth of suffering may not have been fully realized by then? What if their environment might have contributed to this condition and who diagnosed this group with moderate depression? How can you measure and determine brain response to a drug if other coping skills are not being learned? If a person ingests an ssri can their perception of their level of happiness actually change if circumstances do not? What if they lack social connection, family, LOVE? What are people attached to REALLY?
Suffering!
Why are some people able to shine after horrific tragedies deep infinite pain and the knowledge that life is a gift every moment of it and to LOVE.... LOVE LOVE...
If one feels lonely when they have loving healthy children in their home and focus on the missing 'relationship'? The romantic love will make me happy....My happiness level  peaks when I feel connected to people that I love. Period.
I have so much to learn about  how to love. I do not want to be alone but I also see no reason to commit if you are not feeling that soulmate bond that inspired magical passion?
I question my capacity to ever form this belief, confidence that a marraige, a live in partner will complete me.
Happiness is fleeting but also a product of our committment to growth.
First ... here comes my AA upbrining ... Honesty with self ( and sponsor) Willingness ( to walk through the pain, heal and deal and pass it ON, and openmindedness ( higher pwoer/love whatever it is for you)
I admit, I was happier when I had enough money to adequately meet my responsibilities, when I liked my job more, when I was more in love, when I was prettier and when I felt more hope for the future, or at least saw that I could be successful in something.
I was more optimistic and a prozac the size of a baseball will not do that for me. Setraline, however, does control some of the symptoms that sucked the life out of me for years.
You try getting out the door with ocd and add.... it only wqorks if you forget what you wre obsessing about!
But no for me it is a compulsion, self destructive, to re-create trauma and maintain my FUCK UP  late for work chaotic state I guess I am still comfortable in. Another way of disociating but far better than years ago when I lost hours at a time.

I need PEOPLE, my dog, family, ( sobreity obviously) mental health, music,exercise, health food, exposure to places or things ideas that engage my mind, all my hobbies, and children and I do not care if I ever have my own!

THis is what I have learned about my happiness and antidepressants after spending a horrific adolescence and early adulthood self medicating.
I sought help after gettng sober, and after making some 'poor choices' and then absolving myslef of responsibility because I gave ( or hid behind)  my power  in  these little letters, all of them, my identity became them and my self worth 'developmentally delayed'

Most of the time I see the humor in all of this...
Articles like this, the drug companies, studies, lobbyists, and our failed mental health system, and my unaccomplished but  moderately happy sober life, frustrating relationship, and my gratitude for all of it.
Thursday 1/07/10
Please do not comment to advertise or promote anything on here. I cannot see your profile and cannot access your link. Rehab was not my topic nor the nyt article I was talkignabout happiness and ssri's and long after detox/recovery, like at least 12 - 24 months of time and the brain thereafter.

Improve Our Conscious Contact: Learning to walk a Spiritual Path

Improve Our Conscious Contact: Learning to walk a Spiritual Path

I just read this! This is what I was talking about!

Today I was still beaming with happiness from being with people that I love last night. And that LOVE IS ( or ISN'T) like god in the big book. AND I was trying to find words for my own committment to spiritual growth acknowleding that I need help from my higher power to be more convincing of the EMOTIONS and THOUGHTS I have throughout the day for others in my actions.

Speedboat accident at Lake Winnepesauke

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Three people were injured last night (Oct 6)when the driver of a speedboat failed to see the rocks in front of them The area of the lake, Treasue Island has buoys and the boat driver was disoriented. A passenger was severely injured with half of his face xhatterd, the woman Cynthia ( my sister) ___, the driver and a third passenger were catapulted from the boat at impact.Though she had none life threatening internal injuries, her bruises and kidney and liver were bruised.

She said that after the boat stopped she was calling the passengers names in an eerie silence and noone responded. She was terrified she was the only one alive or conscious. She felt blood all over her face arms and neck. Onto rocks in pitch darkness, she pisctured the new zombie movie trailers. I am not sure what words were exchanged but her friend, was still on the phone and coaching her to tell the driver they all needed medical attention. She called her boss as he tried to grab her cell phone away from her. I am not exactly sure why. But knowing her her, ( like myself) fear is the dominant instinct when something happens or you are ill, thoughts are ' crap I am definetely going to be out of work tomorrow'. She told him what was happening and said, "I m calling 911"the boat driver was awake suddenly yelling 'NOOOOO you are FINE s and so is HE ( her friend) and "NO need for THAT" and began to push them out and off of the boat.
You know my sister works in a large dealership that has automatic incomong and outgoing call recording.

Isn't that beautiful?

Amid the controversy about drunk boating and fatalities on Lake Winnepesaukee you would think one would not get into a speed boat with a drinking driver. She was drinking as well. It is legal sure but a few years ago someone was killed same exact scenario and location and it got media attention becase the driver is a somebody. I cannot access the site with the facts right now, my internet is too slow at home.

One would THINK she would run when told a RX was 'real' and she just needed to purchase it for a fee for her boyfriend.
Will it EVER end?
Jails Institutions and death as we say in the 'halls'.
Naturally I asked if he will be charged with a DUI and she replies, " NOONE KNOWS" I asked where she was she said, " at Ronnie's resting." "Yeah I need to rest, 'WE' need to rest.

Thease are just more consequences suffered by everyone's total lack of accountability, responsibilty and respect for the effects of alcohol.

Does that include thinking about how you got there, and you cannot blame the outcome on anyone but yourself for making the choice to 'party' and ride on a speedboat with 'freinds'. In one conversation it was I hardly know this couple? When I reminder her she chose to ride with strangers she said NOOO I've know them for years. I said ever been to their home? Silence.

Oh BAR firends, I understand completely.

I get triggered with this and reexposure to so much crap It is when my ptsd kicks in. I cannot function, I am in dissocation, and have to work really really hard to get grounded and drop the anxiety. I cannot focus or compelte a tasks and I need to do something healing creative and or spiritual.

So what is a good codependent sister to do? Take fall foliage photos AND drive up there and care for her. SO I did. I did not find her resting. I find her on the porch of JP China's telling the whole story. I asked if she wanted to go for a ride and look at the foliage? NOOOO I JUST got back from Hanover plastic surgeon etc, ok OK theeeeen I am not needed cool bye.

I went to MT MAJOR with Ginger and hiked. This used ot restore me and it is just not coming fast enough.

STILL out of it, and see next psot.

I am a new member and pending approval at a local forum I will just linn to the comments..

http://www.winnipesaukee.com/forums/showthread.php?p=108746